woo hoo my dear readers!
Well maybe a little toot…
The Doctors modified my Chemo treatment and I was/am tolerating it pretty well….
But as with all “drugs”…there are side effects. ;(
I would list the side effects, but I can’t talk as fast as those ads on TV for drugs….where they reel off a litany of side effects that are longer than the ingredients of the pill itself.
In addition to that, my fingers don’t work fast (or slow) on the keyboard…as my fingers don’t always do what I tell them to do.
As chemo goes, it doesn’t know what it is supposed to do to an individual organ…so it just sorta sez, let’s mix it up….so my teeth are affected too.
However the steroids are what is helping with the nausea, so I say woo hoo to that.
That also means I would certainly flunk a drug test, so I can cross of the Tour de France bicycle trek from my bucket list.
Oh wait!…it was NEVER on my bucket list.
Hello Lance Armstrong….any tips on how to get through the surprise drug testing??? LOL
So that is the good news, now on to the not so good.
We went to Moffit on Wednesday for a check-in with all my cancer doctors there.
While my Doctor was happy with the 30 percent of the cancer removed with the chemo, she still wasn’t satisfied where the cancer is located…(on the main vein hub if you recall.)
So she looked me straight in the eye and said : “we may just remove your pancreas”.
I, in my layman knowledge said…”Cool, let’s do it right now.”
She then told me she needs more of the cancer removed with the chemo, followed by the 5 straight days of radiation, just as before.
Now comes the explanation.
Organ 101, and why you need your pancreas.
the pancreas secretes and works on breaking food down for passage into the other parts of your body…like the stomach and intestines.
And if you don’t have your pancreas….you become a full blown Diabetic.
You then take more drugs with each meal And two to three insulin shots daily.
One of the drugs is $1500.00 a month.
It beats the alternative, but she also warned that if, the cancer comes back…most likely Hospice would be the next step as she didn’t think I would be able to go back to the chemo.
And as they say (whoever “they” are), the hits just keep on a-coming.
But I know my God can perform miracles and He is here with me going through all the steps…and carrying me when I am weak.
But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
I also want to share a pic I took at the cancer center.
I wanted to cry at the beauty of this husband kneeling before his spouse as she was being given her drip.
She held a kleenix by her mouth as he held her other hand.
And my wonderful church family have been bringing me Hot chicken broth and deli chicken with all the fixin’s….thank you Celeste!
And vegetable soup and corn bread from Susie Q.
So thoughtful of them.
I also received three wonderful gifts and a lovely card.
The gifts are hand made little chemo pillow ports to put over my seat belt so the port doesn’t catch and it gives support.
And each one had a little note.
Thank you so much Kim Billings from the Tampa area.
Hey Guys, I have been receiving so many cards and emails and messages that I am overwhelmed by the love that is coming through to me.
They mean everything to me.
I am truly Blessed.
The Captain gave me a throw that is so pretty and says “Be Still, And know that I am God” Psalm 46:10
And this pretty snowball church for my bedside table.
He is so thoughtful and at my beck and call constantly.
As I said, I am so Blessed.
Thank you all so very much for your encouragement.
With this modified chemo and all the drugs…I am confident that I will fight to the end and then fight some more.
I can’t do it by myself…you are all helping with your prayers….
And Exodus 15:2 says: The Lord is my strength and my song, He has given me victory.
Nehemiah 8:10 “Do not grieve for the joy of the Lord is your strength”
Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Sweet Jesse James, our little bandit that stole our hearts, never leaves my side.