I am still here dear readers….just a lot has happened in the shuffle through Chemo, doctor visits, emergency room visits, hospitals, highs, lows and all of that in between.
I really don’t know how people manage all of the above without a faith of some kind, because the going can get rough and tough.
If I didn’t have my Lord and Savior with me every step of the way….I would be floundering in a sea of despair.
Romans 8:37 “In all these things we are more than conquerers through him who loved us.”
First, the good news.
The horrible, ugly, nasty chemo has managed to shrink my cancer by 30 %….which excited me, but my oncologist….not so much.
It went from 2 centimeters to 1.3 centimeters.
Remember, she has to do the surgery and apparently she wants it much smaller.
The bad? sad? news?
I confess….I was disappointed when she said “Continue the chemo….we will try to modify it a bit so it will be easier for you to tolerate.”
(You see, there are days when I have a type of vertigo where I can’t read with out getting dizzy….and the nausea from the strong dosage of chemo is almost unbearable.)
I was hoping to go straight to radiation and then surgery. ;(
And then on Thursday, at 2 in the morning, I ended up in an ambulance on the way to the hospital.
I felt like singing…..’I love a parade” as the fire truck, the paramedics AND the ambulance arrived on my street with all red lights flashing and waking up the entire neighborhood.
And they kept all lights going while the wonderful EMS ladies strapped me in and slapped on sticky pads all over my body….right out there in my front yard for all to see.
Thank goodness they did not have sirens going.
I think I saw Mrs Kravitz come running out her door in a short nightie and hair curlers screaming…” is she ok”?
Ok, maybe that was one of my delusions, but I do remember thinking….please shut off your lights and let’s not make a spectacle of all this.
So why was an ambulance called?
The dear ole Captain felt I was having a heart attack and in reality, it turned out to be a gall bladder attack, which feels pretty much the same.
So after two days in the hospital….it was determined my gall bladder needed to come out….but then the team of doctors had their conferences, much like the major summit meetings…and the decision to not operate was the consensus of everyone except…get this…my Senior Oncologist in Tampa.
Maybe she felt like she would have enough to remove in the 8-10 hour Whipple operation, and her job could be made easier.
And maybe the doctors in the ER said….”whoa! we are not touching this one…let’s pass the buck”!
Now, dear readers….I don’t know if any of those conversations took place, but I did come home from the hospital with my inflamed gall bladder intact.
And on a soft food, low fat diet.
Of course you know I am craving ALL fried foods now.
Fried Chicken, Chicken Fried Steak, Deep Fried Catfish…..and I could go on and on.
As I eat my clear jello.
And sip on my hot tea and nibble on my dry toast.
After church yesterday, one of our sweet ladies offered to drop off some Chicken Broth and it tasted so good.
That is another plus…when one of our own is down…all our wonderful church family lifts us up.
And not just my church family but all my friends across the globe.
Yes, I have dear friends in Ireland, England, Australia, Canada and Mexico who are sooooo supportive.
And I can’t forget all my super-wonderful blogger friends.
I have been receiving such beautiful encouraging cards from you….. that I send the Captain to the mailbox daily looking for my daily encouragement.
i can’t thank you enough sweet friends.
I read the cards over and over….
So until next installment….the word is to keep on keeping on and so with God as my Captain, and my Captain as my co-captain…
More Chemo treatments, hopefully not as strong….until my oncologist is satisfied.
Remember, we got this at stage one (or two) which is highly unusual.
Once it reaches stage 4…it is more difficult to treat and there are not too many success stories at that stage of the cancer.
Keep apprised of your body dear friends….if you feel something isn’t quite right…most likely YOU are right.
Get regular check ups and insist on further tests even if your doctor does not.
We caught mine very early.
I have to also remind you that Dorian was sending winds and rain and devastating the Bahamas….I pray for all those who have lost everything, my heart goes out to them…. and I thank God for sparing Florida.
I leave you with my verse for today.
Proverbs 3: 5, 6
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways submit to Him and He will make your path straight.”
Hugs and much love and Blessings Always