At first light (early this morning), I grabbed my cup of hot tea, and curled up on the sofa.
It was very quiet and peaceful, and still dark outside.
I like to turn on the Christmas trees and the lights on the mantle …. any chance I get, …..as they are so pretty and give off a special glow.
As I sat watching the flickering glow of the fire place, I held my sweet, little, white pom, Jesse on my lap.
We named him Jesse James because he is the little bandit that stole our hearts.
However, today Jesse is not quite himself.
You see the last few days, he has been having seizures.
These are the kind where he cries out and gets all stiff as he hobbles towards me as I rush to meet him and lift him up into my arms.
It is heart breaking.
The vet says there is really nothing I can do other than make him as comfortable as I can.
He has had seizures before, but few and far between….I believe the last one was about 6-8 months ago, lasted about 30 seconds and then he jumped around as good as new as if nothing ever happened.
The last few days have been different.
He has had several of these spasm episodes…and although he has never slept in our bed, I made an exception and tucked him close to me.
There is a pill that the vet gave me, but it is more for relaxing him and not preventative.
So this morning, I sat there in my robe, holding him close as he looked up at me with those big brown eyes.
So trusting and expecting me to solve all his issues as I have done so many times in his life.
He is 12 years old…and still looks like a new puppy, and he weighs all of 5 pounds.
I don’t know what tomorrow will bring for him. I have been in constant communication with the vet.
Right now, I am able to soothe, pet and “talk him through” these seizures.
But I do know that if he gets so that he can not “come” out of these episodes, there will have to be decisions made that I don’t want to even discuss.
For right now,… for today,….. I hold him, talking softly to him and praying the prayer that I know God always answers.
The prayer?… “God’s Will Be Done”
You see, God cares about everything that concerns us, and one might say there are people all over the world that need prayer….and one would be right.
But God is not limited by boundaries.
The Bible tells us in Luke 12: 6,7,……
….”Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God, and even the very hairs of your head are all numbered …..
How special is His Love for us.
Have a great day!